First Bit of Snow... and i've been thinking
well well... alas, it's snowing in Ann Arbor... although it's just a few pathetic snow fall... but a snow is a snow... so, well, snow came slightly more than a week earlier than last year...
a lot of things have been going on and I've been thinking a lot lately... a lot about what I'm getting out of this education... a lot of people have been telling me how prestigious University of Michigan is... and again and again, I've hearing this from speakers drilling this fact - Former VP Al Gore, Bill Gates, and many more...
So, here I am, almost done with my first semester as a Sophomore, planning what courses to take next semester, and preparing for 3 midterms ahead (Differential Equation on Friday, International Economics on Monday and Stats on Tuesday) and Cultural Anthropology quiz on Tuesday... and another paper due soon, and an abstract soon enough and a 10-page Anthro paper not so soon after...and then, 1 more midterm and 3 more finals(all in a span of a month after my Stats MT next Tues)... and that's it... my 3rd semester in Umich, done...
Recently, I've been attending presentations of companies and all too... updating my resume and looking for an intern position over the summer... any takers? I'm not too bad a candidate... really...
so, all these running around, cracking my brain studying are really taxing me... i'm young and all, but still, i'm human too... sometime late at night, when it's quiet and dark, and lonely and cold, I can't help but wonder where's all these getting me to??? why all these works??? sometimes, after a long day, out from 7am, and back at 8.30pm, I really don't know what I've learnt after a long day of hauling ass from one lecture to another class, to another talk, then, to a presentation, then to a meeting... how's all these going to help me in my future? and is this all about preparing me for my future?
I've been a really positive thinker all these while... and I was told that it might come back and bite me... is this what it's like to be bitten by it? Am I just tired? (Hopefully my trip to Orlando and Miami Florida will kinda recharge and rejuvenate me somehow)... Am I just being silly for being so positive in stuffs and being 'exploited' somehow? Why am I feeling empty inside me? Am I just lonely? (and I should get a girlfriend... i can't believe I said this... but I'm not gonna delete this)... Is it the pressure from myself on my to perform well? What is it? Am I losing it?
So many questions... Is this what they called SAD... Seasonal Affective Disorder?? really???
I'll see how things go and hopefully, some of these questions will be answered... If not, I'll just go to the Counseling & Psychological Services and get some professional help...
I'm still going to be positive... Everything is gonna be alright...
the middle - jimmy eat world
"It just takes some time, little girl[boy]
You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right"
Quote: I was like a swan - all serene at the top but paddling like hell underneath
a lot of things have been going on and I've been thinking a lot lately... a lot about what I'm getting out of this education... a lot of people have been telling me how prestigious University of Michigan is... and again and again, I've hearing this from speakers drilling this fact - Former VP Al Gore, Bill Gates, and many more...
So, here I am, almost done with my first semester as a Sophomore, planning what courses to take next semester, and preparing for 3 midterms ahead (Differential Equation on Friday, International Economics on Monday and Stats on Tuesday) and Cultural Anthropology quiz on Tuesday... and another paper due soon, and an abstract soon enough and a 10-page Anthro paper not so soon after...and then, 1 more midterm and 3 more finals(all in a span of a month after my Stats MT next Tues)... and that's it... my 3rd semester in Umich, done...
Recently, I've been attending presentations of companies and all too... updating my resume and looking for an intern position over the summer... any takers? I'm not too bad a candidate... really...
so, all these running around, cracking my brain studying are really taxing me... i'm young and all, but still, i'm human too... sometime late at night, when it's quiet and dark, and lonely and cold, I can't help but wonder where's all these getting me to??? why all these works??? sometimes, after a long day, out from 7am, and back at 8.30pm, I really don't know what I've learnt after a long day of hauling ass from one lecture to another class, to another talk, then, to a presentation, then to a meeting... how's all these going to help me in my future? and is this all about preparing me for my future?
I've been a really positive thinker all these while... and I was told that it might come back and bite me... is this what it's like to be bitten by it? Am I just tired? (Hopefully my trip to Orlando and Miami Florida will kinda recharge and rejuvenate me somehow)... Am I just being silly for being so positive in stuffs and being 'exploited' somehow? Why am I feeling empty inside me? Am I just lonely? (and I should get a girlfriend... i can't believe I said this... but I'm not gonna delete this)... Is it the pressure from myself on my to perform well? What is it? Am I losing it?
So many questions... Is this what they called SAD... Seasonal Affective Disorder?? really???
I'll see how things go and hopefully, some of these questions will be answered... If not, I'll just go to the Counseling & Psychological Services and get some professional help...
I'm still going to be positive... Everything is gonna be alright...
the middle - jimmy eat world
"It just takes some time, little girl[boy]
You're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be all right, all right"
Quote: I was like a swan - all serene at the top but paddling like hell underneath
posted by Voon Seng at 9:38 PM
3 Comments:
Everything will be fine. Don't worry too much. At least, if someone were to go crazy, I'd be the first one, not you...hehe
Those questions pondering you are pondering me as well. But one bad thing about me is that I can never be very positive when it comes to me myself. I'm positive about others, but not me, weird huh?
If you need someone to talk to, I might be a good listener...haha, just listen, ok? suggestion-wise, don't think i can give any constructive ones. :p
If you think it's time to find a gf, just go for it; I'm curious to see how "Seng Sou" will look like. Hehe...
Good luck in your midterms, and mine too!!! :D Add oil together...
Looks like everyone is having the same syndrome lately...
The way I see it, you have two choices:
1) You jump off some really high place with no chance of living afterwards
2) You plan a direction in life, set goals and achieve
Why do you go to talks and presentations and other stuff that improve your CV? Is it because of self-enrichment? Do you feel empowered to do things you've never done before? Do you feel inspired to achieve things others have never done? Do you get knowledge with which you can hold the world in your grasp? I do..
Alas, you are goal-less, hence the lament.. (Get a girlfriend too!)
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