It's been hell of a week... and more

first of all, my prayers go out to all affected by the Virginia Tech shooting. To those that passed, may you rest in peace.

Last week was alright, the actuary bar crawl on Friday was amazing. We should have started our Math 520 class last semester with something like this. We would definitely be a lot closer, and will know one another better.

Anyway, it was really a night.

Last Saturday and Sunday was pretty much spent in front of the computer, reading and writing my final paper. About welfare-to-work program. It was a huge paper, and I did spent a lot of time researching on it. For the paper, I read more than 2000 pages of stuff, and it was, well, I can't think of a word to describe it.

Also, the Math 521 midterm on Thursday wasn't that good either. But, it was better than my expectation. So, not too bad.

So, it's study time for me now. But, tonight, there's this Markley party. Markley party is always fun. Really, seeing people in a different setting, in their elements is really good. But, I won't be drinking much tonight as I have a lot to study for. 3 Finals next week. One on Monday, one on Tuesday and another one on Wednesday. And, I can't afford to 'neglect' any of them, especially not the Econ on Wednesday because I 'bombed' my first midterm, and really need to score on this one to get my grade.

The weather had been great lately, and I'm loving it. Yesterday night, I was having so much fun, packing my winter clothing and all. Not that I wore my winter jacket at all over the winter, but those sweaters and hoodies.

So, that's about it. It's final crunch time, and packing up, and I'll be done with my junior year. Can't believe it. Freshman year was just like yesterday. Everything was still fresh in mind. But, nope, it's all 3 years ago now. And come next year, I'll be a senior. Ehemmm... SENIOR...

And, I'm actually considering working on a third major, but i'm not so sure if i really want to burden myself with that, even though it will be good to learn about it, as it will be really useful for my work and all, but, at the mean time, I want to have fun too. Not that I'm not having any now, but, there's always room for more fun, just like dessert...

Alright, got to get back to work. See you guys soon!

Some thoughts...

Well, once in a while, I'll just think about random things. When I'm not too tired at night, I'll just reflect about stuff and ponder about things before dozing off too sleep. But, too often than not, I'm just too tired and fall asleep as soon as my hitting the pillow.

But, somehow, after a really long day and long week yesterday night, I managed to put in some good thinking. It has been a long week as I had been trying to sort too many things out at the same time. Homework, quizzes, prepare for exam, presentation, other admin stuff, emails, dinner... All these stuff were chipping away my sleep, and I had 4-5 hours or sometime less sleep each night for the past 5 days. NO GOOD. I know it's just soon before I crash. And the cough that I'm developing/healing from is not helping either.

So, with that little sleep, I still put in my 'usual' run, (I'm on a 3 miles and 5 miles every other day plan). And yesterday, Student Actuaries @ Michigan (SAM) won our IM volleyball match again. It will be semifinal on Tuesday, and hopefully, final on Wednesday. But, at the same time, Quiz on Tuesday, presentation on Wednesday, and midterm and homework on Thursday. And not to mention a big paper due and a final the following week, and then 3 finals the next week. Well, enough of ranting and bitching about school and exams.

So, I managed to catch the last episode of Lost yesterday, and one sentence in Sawyer and Hugo's conversation hit me really hard. "What if I don't want to be a leader?" "Do you think Jack wants to be a leader?"

As a leader for many stuff since I was 6, somehow, I was always picked by teachers and all. I remembered somehow, I was picked to give a welcoming speech in Mandarin for my kindergarten annual performance event. Then, when I was 7 (1st grade/standard 1), I was picked as the class monitor, and I don't think I even know what is a class monitor. And then, with prior experience, making me a class monitor and school prefect were much easier for teachers. And I was 'something' every year for my school life, both in primary and secondary school. But, somehow, the question "what if I don't want to be a leader?" had ever come to me.
I mean, did I or did I not want to be leader back in the days? Come to think about it now, I don't know. I mean, how would I know?

But well, if I were to think about this same question, it just sounds weird. What if I don't want to be a leader? I still don't have a good answer to that question. I know that I would like to be a leader, but would I would like to be a leader? What's in it for me that I would make sacrifices and all to be a leader? Do I want the power? Or do I like to lead? Or do I just want to show others what I'm capable of? Or do I just care too much? Or do I just have nothing else better to do? I really don't know. Maybe I'm just too comfortable to be in the driver's seat since I was put in this position for so long now.

Can't believe it's snowing now, it's freaking April, and yes, this weekend's weather is hovering in the 20s - 30s... (Fahrenheit), below freezing point.

It's April...

Can't believe that it's April already. It's really hard to believe how time flies, and I can't believe how many times I said this on the blog too.

So, last week was another packed week. With the usual classes and work on Monday through Thursday, and having to prepare for the SEA Cultural Night on Saturday, and slotting in a SAM field trip to Chicago on Friday, and then, having to work on the Financial Math computer assignment all day on Sunday were definitely not the best way to spend your week. Not to mention, my throat was feeling not so well on Friday, and the Bdubs night out to celebrate my friend's 21st birthday that night wasn't the best way to treat my throat.

As a result, I woke up Saturday with a really coarse voice. And with all the running around (as stage manager), and the singing for the combined performance, left me woke up to a rather serious laryngitis the next morning. I'm literally voiceless. My effort to speak normally will not even result to a soft whisper. In order to make noise, I had to apply pressure to my throat.

Hopefully, I will really get well soon. It will be a really busy week for me though, as I need to work on my final paper, after getting back some really good (and elaborated) comments on my first draft from my prof. So, it's gonna be hell for the next 2 weeks, with all the quizzes, assignments, and not to mention, the looming of exams. Not the best timing to fall sick. But well, is there ever a good time to fall sick?

I did resumed my running, and so far, it had been going well. Surprisingly, after 3 months of not running, my stamina is still the same. I would start my run (on the treadmill) at 6.3 miles/hr, and would increase the speed by an increment of 0.1 miles/hr every 2 minutes, until I reached the 3-mile distance, which then, the increment would depend on my 'condition' at that time. If I'm still feeling strong, I would go for a 0.2 increment every 2 minutes, until 8.5 miles/hr. And then, at the very end, I'll pump the speed up to 9.0miles/hr, and run at that speed for few minutes, and by this time, the total distance covered should be close to 5 miles. And that's when I'll stop. 5 miles in 41-42 minutes.

Next target, 6 miles in 48 minutes. And then, 10 miles in 80 minutes. And then 8 miles in 60 minutes. And then, 10 miles in 75 minutes. (being ambitious here) And hopefully by then, can do a 15 miles in 2 hours. (see where I'm going here?)... BEING VERY AMBITIOUS... to train for a marathon. I think there are other methods out there developed by pros and all on google, but well, I think I'll do this on my own. Since I want to have fun, yeah, my definition of fun might be a bit insane, but well, it's a mad world. And, there's nothing pressing, I mean, I like to run after a long day, a 3-mile or a 5-mile is always good to 'slow' down after a long day.

And, as promised, next post will be about my trip to Manchester more than a month ago. Sorry guys. But, what's worth mentioning is that Manchester United won their game last weekend. 4 - 1. They are a mean bunch of goal scoring monsters this season. But, I'm not complaining.

Sleep deprived...

How important is sleep to you? Well, that's a pretty dumb question as sleep is essential to all.

How many hours do you sleep a day on average? Well, that's more like it. Mine depends. Depends on the mood, depends on how much work is pending, depends on how many episodes of series waiting... So, that being said, I get about 5-6 hours on average. Naps included (not much of a difference even if I were to include them because, my naps are never intended. More like accidentally kinda thing.

How do you know that you are sleep deprived? When you need more than 2 alarm clocks, and your alarm is loud.

How do you know you had enough sleep? When I start to have dreams.

I tried to sleep as much as possible on my free days, but, my body is just not taking it. Once I've hit 6 hours of sleep, I'll wake up automatically, even if i were to force myself to bed, I'll just toss and turn, or wake up again after 15 minutes. And with the weather getting warmer and warmer, I'll definitely have a harder time falling asleep.

Yar, so, for the past 4 days, I'd been sleeping 4 hours a night. And that's starting to have an effect on me. I'm feeling like crap, and walking around like a zombie. But, hell, it's better to be a walking zombie, and a stiff corpse right?

So, this week went by rather uneventfully, other than the SAM election, there weren't anything else. Yesterday night, I went to play IM volleyball with the SAM, our team 'Run Perpetually' won 3 - 0. That's a BIG win. Not only it was our first win, we were playing like we were on steroid or something, making huge shots, incredible saves, nice set-ups, long rallies... It's just soo much fun. Following that, we played 3 on 3 basketball, which was all fun too.

Since I hadn't been running for a long time now, so much for new year resolutions right? I felt so out of shape yesterday. On my way down to Intramural Sports Building (IMSB), as i walked out of my dorm, the bus just zoomed past me. Not wanting to be late, I ran to CCLittle to catch the same bus. And, after a few jumps and all in volleyball, both my calves were sorta aching. I played through it, but still, I think I REALLY need to dust my running shoes, and hit the threadmills, or just run outdoor again.

And, I need a hair cut badly. I've been putting off getting a hair cut for close to a month now, and it's covering and itching m eyes.

A weekend wasted or a wasted weekend?

As last Saturday was St. Patrick's Day, initially, I planned to get wasted, but somehow, maybe because of a previously unmentioned encounter that enlightened me, I was able to control my drinking, and was as sober as a judge for the entire me. Pats on my back from myself. I'm kinda proud of myself for doing that actually.

But, it was still a really fun day. On Friday, bunch of us went to TK Wu for dinner, for my birthday. Thanks guys! Thanks for the birthday card too. I love it. And the Coldstone coffee ice-cream cake, oooh... delicious.

After that, I went to Mitch's and had a 'quiet' drinking with Ethan, had 1 pitcher each. It wasn't really quiet as it was karaoke night at Mitch's. Gosh, it was bad. Nevertheless, it was still great to catch-up with Ethan after a long while, last day of exams last semester.

So, I went back to my room at about midnight and tried to bank up some sleep as I would need it for St. Patrick's Day.

Next morning, I woke up at 5am, and went to Ashley's at 5.40am. Damn, the line outside Ashley's was insane. The line must had been 200 ppl strong. Seeing that, I walked to Buffalo Wild Wings aka Bdubs instead. I was like the 10th person in line at about 6am. I gave Quang multiple wake-up calls. He came at about 6.30am. My toes were numb by then. It was below freezing point by maybe a 4-5 degrees.

So, I was at Bdubs until 10am. Had 3 green beers, and green wings, and some onion rings with green ranch. As Quang refused to eat anything that wasn't green, we requested Bdubs to dye the ranch green. Genius!

As Quang was in a bad shape, kinda drunk/hungover from last night, we decided to split and get some sleep, and meet up later, and see how things go. I got few more hours of sleep, and even spent an hour on writing my econ paper. Then, I went to Alex's place and just watched March Madness there. From like 6pm til 11pm. Had few more Guinness Draught while watching the matches. Nothing much. At about midnight, I went to grab some food. Ended up at Pancheros, and dang, there dyed their tortillas green. So, I actually had a green burrito.

So, it was quite a safe but still fun St. Patrick's for me.

That was Saturday. On Sunday, I woke up at 9ish, and started working on my paper at 10am. At about 1pm, I kinda got stuck, writer's block i guess, even though I'm no writer. So, I decided to check out the Honors Convocation. It was a really grand event.

The speeches were great and inspiring. Hope I'll get the link of the transcript of the speech and put it up here. One of the more sticky lines is about whether you challenge your classmates and impress your professor, or you impress your classmates and challenge your professor.

So, after the Honors Convocation, which was only 1 hr and 15 minutes short, and compact. I got back to my room, rested awhile, and after dinner, I continued to battle with my paper. And, before I knew it, it was 2am when I finally gave up. Left with 1 paragraph. As I still need to read a paper for tomorrow's discussion, I slept at about 3am. Woke up at 7am, and re-read the paper.

Went to the discussion, and got back at about 10am, and started the final battle with my first draft. At about 12.15pm, I finally got sicked of the paper, and decided that I did enough for a first draft of the paper and submitted it.

Still not feeling so well, I called in sick for my work in the afternoon. So, that's pretty much it. I still have several posts about my trip to Europe. So, do check back soon. Really soon!

It's about the journey...

WARNING: This is gonna be one of those 'thoughts' rambling...

So, i'm actually not sure if typing is therapeutic, but expressing what you have in mind, in whatever ways definitely help. One of my friends suggested writing your thoughts and worries on a piece of paper, and then tear up the paper. I'm more for typing them all on the blogs, and see how I grow, how I become more and more mature as I grow older, and hopefully wiser. Imagine if I were to keep this blog, or maybe another blog under another chapter for say 10-20 years, and after 20 years, looking and reading back all these posts, it's gonna be something. Don't you think so?

So, thanks for all the support and consoling words in response to the previous post. I'm touched. So, I thought that I already get over it. But, knowing me, I still want to add some words to that. I finally realize that it's all about the journey, not so much of the end result. See, going to interviews and all, then, to the companies for 2nd round interviews, were indeed great eye opener to me. On top of that, these interviews taught me even more than just how to communicate, but also, how to make plans better. Interviews, especially 2nd rounds are very time consuming. Not only do you need to prepare yourself for them, all the traveling, waiting, and other related stuffs really throw my already busy schedule off rhythm. So, time management skills, also, know your priorities definitely help you to be able to keep a good balance between getting your grades and also making ends meet.

Also, from the interviews, I learned a lot more not only about companies and their employees, but also, a lot more about myself. While answering, and preparing myself to answer those behavioral questions, all the tell-me-about-your-experience-when questions really had me thinking about over the 3 years here at the University of Michigan so far, what had I really learned as a person. Other than just getting the grades, working to earn for my holidays, what have I done to develop myself to be a better person. When did I take initiatives to do something out of my comfort zone? When did I take lead? What's my proudest achievements so far? When did I have a disagreement with my supervisor? How did I go about solving problems?... All these questions might be meant for the interviewers to learn about me, but I learned about myself answering them too.

This had been a pretty moody week for me. I'm not sure izzit because of the extremely frigid weather, the 4 exams/midterms next week (+ 20% of having to make a presentation on an Econ paper), having to pack for my Spring Break trip to England and Ireland, my disappointment of the rejection + the wait for to hear from the other company, or whatever. But, I had been not feeling well, and cheerful, and high-spirited as I normally would. On top of that, I had been sleeping more (which might sound like a good thing to others, but it's definitely not a good sign for me). I only sleep more when I have problems. But, whatever it is, all I'm asking for is to get through the next 6 days and I'm off to my Spring break, flying away from all these, not sure if it's gonna help, but I definitely need a break.

Chinese New Year is just 2 days away. But, really, I have no mood or feel like celebrating at all. How do you celebrate when you at the corner of your eyes, you see exams, deadlines, and worries? But, really, hope the year of the golden boar will bring us all good health, and that's all I ask for.

More about my Spring Break trip(or next 2 week's agenda generally):
So, I have 2 exams on Tues, 20% chance of having to present an Economics paper on Wed, 2 more exams on Thur, in between all those studying, I need to pack to my Spring break trip, which I will be leaving for the airport at 5.40pm, right after my Econ exam that will end at 5.30pm. At 8.10pm, I'll fly to London Heathrow, via Chicago. On the 23rd (Fri), I'll be arriving at London Heathrow Airport at 11.30am, will then meet up with my friend, Chee Han and other Subang Utama people in London, probably 1pm. Then, might do some walking around, until night for the CNY dinner. I'll be in London for 4 days, til Monday afternoon(Feb 26th), where I'll be flying to Dublin, Ireland alone, spending 2 nights there, and from Dublin, I'll fly to Manchester on Wed(Feb 28th) night, meeting up with Kim Tat, then, spend 2-3 nights there, and then from there, taking a train early Sat(Mar 3rd) morning to the great city of Southampton, where I'll be meeting up with Tremayne, spending one night there, and then, on Sun(Mar 4th) noon, going to London, and flying back to Detroit via Chicago, reaching the airport at about 8ish, take a bus back to Ann Arbor, should be reaching 10ish. And, the next day, class at 8.30am.

Busy enough? I guess...

What I really want to say in this post is, life is a long journey. Where you want to go, and what you want to do and how you want to look at things really make or break the journey. Watching American Idol has really taught me a lot about this. Watching people having dreams, and strive hard to achieve it really means a lot. It really taught me, whatever you want, you must work hard to achieve it. And what you think about yourself, might not turn out to be what others are thinking about you. But, that's totally fine. If that's what who you are, and it's not wrong, you don't have to change yourself just to fit in. It's about where YOU want to go, and what YOU want to do, and how YOU want to see things. It's YOUR journey.

Let me quote my favorite movie of the year , Little Miss Sunshine,
Dwayne:"You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. School, then college, then work... Fuck that. And fuck the Air Force Academy. If I want to fly, I'll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and fuck the rest."

I'm no way angry or sad in anyway while writing this post. I'm just sharing my thoughts, and I'm actually smiling while typing and reflecting all this.

Typing is therapeutic

Hi guys, it had been a long while since I last updated here. I thought I could wait until I have some good news before I update my blog here, but, I was plutoed. One of my favorite companies that I applied for rejected me after the 2nd interview. It was painful. What a bitter pill to swallow. I do think that it's our loss. Really! My loss and theirs. So, I actually found that typing is therapeutic. So, expect a long post.

Why? Because of information is deemed as private goods, they don't really know about me to make a decision with full knowledge about me. That's why I'm a proponent for knowledge sharing. Knowledge and information should be public goods, make available for all. That's why I don't think interview is a good way to really know a person. It's more like judging a book by its cover. Why not do some recommendations, or some other more insightful ways to really learn about a person. I would say. It's really unfair (i know, nobody say everything is gonna be fair in the real world) for one to be judged just like that.

But, interview is just all about judging a person. From the first appearance, first words, first smell, first sense/feel to the very last thoughts. It's all judge judge judge. It's worse than a blind date(i guess, never have the opportunity). That's why I think people really need to come up with better ideas on getting to know a person before making hiring decisions. Really, it's really disheartening, discomforting, and just demoralizing to see someone with not as good work ethics, qualifications and what not to be running away with offers. I'm not saying that employers are making bad decisions, but, I'm just saying that they don't have enough info and knowledge to make a good one.

I know there are faults on my part, because I know that I'm not the easiest person to read. People think that I'm too guarded, but I'm not. I'm just that plain, that straight and that 'boring' a person. I was told by someone that I'm just too good, too nice, just everything with me is right, and that's a problem. Because, that's not possible. But well, I'm not trying to brag here, but that's pretty much who I am. I am hardworking(call me an workaholic, because it's written on my forehead). I am a fast learner (in stuffs that I'm interested in). I have the grades, the professional papers, the leadership experiences, and other stuffs to back me up. But well, I guessed I'm too prepped up? But I'm not. I don't just do something to make my resume looks nice, but I did a lot of stuffs and hence, my resume is filled. I was never comfortable telling people about my achievements, because that's the Asian 'humble' tradition. Not until I learned that in order to be noticeable, one need to really state a point, make a statement, show a blast, and stress your existence. If not, you will just be buried by others.

I am a positive person too. My biggest problem is that I need to learn to let go. Really, something like such rejections will set me back a lot. It affects me so much that I know that I really need to learn to let go. Life's like that, you know. As cliche as is sounds, it really is. There's no smooth sailing all the time. If there's, what fun would that bring? But, having hopes and being disappointed is no fun either. It knocked me off so well that my positive self was so affected that I had to use all sorta logic to console myself. Most of the time, I can just take things easy, and laugh it off in minutes. But, this got me really bad. But well, at least I'm comfortable talking about it now.

Fear. That's what bothering me now. I know I should still be positive, but after having such a bad first step, I'm really afraid to be hopeful. I'm afraid to be confident, and I'm afraid to really believe in myself. The sheer fear of thoughts that not having an summer internship really makes me shiver. For that reason, I looked for more alternatives and sent in a few more applications just to keep myself busy, and just think that miracles will happen.

I've finally purchased all my flight tickets (from London to Dublin and from Dublin to Manchester), also, I've booked my hostels at Dublin. In addition, I've bought a huge backpack for my trip and it's now on its way to me. I'll start packing really soon, because it is going to be a crazy week right before my spring break begins. 4 exams on that week. Not to mention, most probably, I'll need to start working on my first draft of my course paper, which is my potential thesis. I'm really looking forward for this spring break, because it had been a really long first-half of the semester for me. All the interviews, classes, work, unforeseen stuffs, and also, extra-curricular work are really wearing me down well. Not to mention, I need to start studying for the actuarial exam in May too. All the emotional ups and downs are not easy to deal with either.

OK, my thoughts are going everywhere now. Last 2 weeks had been really cold. I read somewhere that it was one of the coldest Feb in 100 years here at Michigan. I don't think there was a point in February thus far that's above the freezing point here at Michigan. And, that's just temperature. If you were to take into consideration the wind-chill effect, it's even colder. Most nights, it's more than 10 degree Celcius below the freezing point. And the coldest I'd experience this month is a whopping -24 Celcius. Pure temperature. -29 degree with wind chill. How cold is that? too cold... too cold. Hopefully, it's just because of the arctic blast and not because of the late start of the winter season. But, well, what do i know about being hopeful again?

I really do hope that I will have some good news to share with all in my next post. Keep warm, but stay cool... :)

Pheww

So, phew, another busy week after another long weekend had passed. It was all good.

After walking around in my monkey suit for days, often wearing it for the entire day, to classes drawing stares, and to interviews answering and asking questions, I finally got done with my 1st round interviews (all 8 of them) today. Some interviews went well, where the interviewers were just so nice and friendly, and the interviews went by just like an informal chat sessions, where I got to learn about their job and working environment. So, thanks a lot to all interviewers for making these interviews, and also for your time. Whatever the outcome is, I believed I learned a great deal from all these sessions.

So far, I have some good news to share, but it's kinda pre-mature for me to say anything yet. So, I'll keep u guys posted.

Listening to the State of the Union now, it's kinda weird for me to type this, but well, I can multitask pretty well.

Last Saturday, my buddy Dane turned 21, and on Friday night, we went to Ashley's, where I got a Cider sampler flight, a Great Divine IPA (Indian Pale Ale), and an Irish car bomb. It was amazing.

Anyway, so, it's been crazy with everything, companies coming in having information sessions, going to almost every one of them, eating pizzas for 3 or more nights a week, to the point that I can remember the smell of pizzas by just imagining them in my mind. So, no more pizza for weeks or months to come.

So, I've decided to move out of dorm, and moving in to apartment (Northwood III) next year. Seeing how I'll have more free time, and more freedom with staying in an apartment, I'll be doing more cooking(hopefully, I won't be tired of it comes the time I've to cook every day, or eat out).

Also, I've decided that I'll get a car for next year if I were to get an internship this summer. :) We'll see how that goes.

Also, I'm starting my series viewing, with currently 24, American Idol, CSI, CSI:NY and ... on the list, and more to be added to the list (Lost).

And, I'm working close to 20 hours a week, but I've been dropping one shift or two for my interviews and all, so, it's all good so far. Classes have been going, just that I'm considering, and still have 24 hours to do so, whether I want to pass/fail Econ 431 (Industrial Organization & Performance) so that I can afford to miss some late Thursday classes.

So, I'm all nervous right now, trying to learn more about table manners, and also, being comfortable with being myself. I'm just afraid that I would be too nervous in front of prospective employers/colleagues and making a fool of myself.

Moving on, I'm still searching for a topic (more like searching more articles to confirm my topic) for my Econ 495 proposal. I'm looking at the social program of training inmates to help them re-entering the society. Either that, or I'll be evaluating the program of bringing health insurance to the poor. Pretty interesting...

Well, i'm getting a blog diarrhea, better stop here...

also, I'm attaching 'my' cheesy tuna noodle casserole' recipe:

1 (12 1/2 oz.) can chunk light tuna in water
1 pkg. frozen mixed vegetables (optional)
1 (12 oz.) pkg. wide egg noodles
Season to taste (Garlic salt, chopped garlic, black pepper, salt...)
1 can cream of mushroom soup (very important, main part of the gravy)
1 1/2 c. milk
1 (8 oz.) container sour cream (optional - but will be great to have it)
1 1/2 c. grated Cheddar cheese
1 1/2 c. grated Mozzarella cheese
1 SWEET Onion (i love these...)

Microwave the frozen mixed vegetables. Cook and drain the noodles separately. Heat soup, milk, and sour cream. Blend until smooth. Mix all ingredients together with tuna(make sure the tuna is well-flaked and 3/4 cups each of Cheddar and Mozzarella cheese. Pour into a baking pan. Top with remaining cheese and bake in 350 degree oven for 20 to 25 minutes.

(I googled this. And did some modifications to it. Add some hot pepper if you like it to be spicy.)

Enjoy!!!

Also, QOTD (quote of the day) : One of my Econs professor, while lecturing: Take this sucker here, and put it into that sucker there. And you will get this. Now this sucker...